In spite of…

Ezekiel 21:29 New International Version (NIV)

²⁹ Despite false visions concerning you
    and lying divinations about you,
it will be laid on the necks
    of the wicked who are to be slain,
whose day has come,
    whose time of punishment has reached its climax.

I remember in earlier years, when faced with heartbreak or any kind of disappointment, the first thing I would do is curse the ground the disappointment came from. Now mind you I never followed through with the things I said, it was all out of anger but I remember vaguely some terrible things happening anyway and I always felt like crap afterwards. Thinking to myself, ‘what if me speaking ugly things into existence was all it took to get the ball rolling.’

Thankfully I eventually got over saying stupid things, for the most part. Don’t get me wrong, I still have my setbacks at time. Lately I have become more mindful of the things that fly out of mouth during my anger spirts. I won’t sit up here and lie to say that I have been completely redeemed, I am far from perfect but still at least I sense the need to work on myself. Therefore I am doing just that.

As I have stated before, I have begun to see things a bit differently walking in God’s light and accepting my rightful place on the good path. The right side has allowed me to see things a bit differently than I used to. Before when bad things happened, I automatically assumed I was being punished for something. The huge doubt that was on my mind made me feel like I was not living up to what example God would want me to be. (I hope that makes sense)

As soon as something goes astray the first thing that would come to mind was, ‘what did I do wrong now, Lord?’ ‘What did I do to deserve this punishment?’ ‘Why is this happening to me?’

I’m sure someone out there understands how I was feeling, hopefully I’m not the only naïve person that didn’t understand that’s not how God operates.

He doesn’t punish us in that manner to make us act right in the sense that I was thinking. Instead he shows us the consequences to our decisions nothing less nothing more. His lessons are either you will learn from what he shows you or you will continue to suffer.

One thing I had right before I started going to church and studying a bit was that numerous bumps, bruises, mistakes, and upsets are all life lessons. That was always my thought process and I never knew why I thought that, I just did. All along I couldn’t have been more right whether I went to church, bible study, Sunday school, or lived by the bibles every word.

Another wonderful thing I have gathered on my journey to live better and bask in God’s divine light, I don’t have to be a bible thumper in order to be redeemed. In order for his light to show in my everyday walk, I simply must believe and let the faith I have show as proof.

Although I catch myself on several occasions complaining about pointless things, I thank God for the small whispers that assure me it isn’t as bad as I think. Then I see others suffering more than my simple moan and groan of disdain. No matter what, I must always be grateful for what I have and especially the things I have overcome.

I thank God for me not being the same person that I used to be. I thank God for the loved ones that prayed for me to be humble. I graciously accept with a humble heart everything the Lord has in store and I pray I can fulfill the prophecy set out for me.

Who knows where I may end up but as long as the Lord continues to show favor, mercy, and love in my life, I WON’T COMPLAIN.

Be blessed and Happy Holiday’s!

K. K. Harris